Attempting To Fix the Unfixable
April 14, 2003, 11:54 AM

Oh yeah I have some major issues, I am telling you.

You see I have this quiz today, it is not worth much, it is in an area I know quite a bit about, and it is only worth 10%, that is nothing in the overhaul. However, am I clam? or even ok with all of this? NO! I am wigging out of my skull! I have my heart and lungs racing almost to the point of hyperventilating. I was walking to class, and ad my self so worked up over everything that's going on in my life this week, that I was getting a HUGE headache, you know one of those super sharp stabbing ones right in my left temple. As this headache was getting worse, I was creating a vicious circle in my little brain, then at this point I run to a poor unsuspecting shrubbery, and woofed my cookies. I will not recall the details of what it looked like, but let us just say if I had any doubts that I was related to cats, those doubts are no more.

I fear that something is wrong with me that I am so worked up; I think that all of this is the underlying cause of everything. My depression --> my Self-harm--> suicide--> yadda yadda, but the real question is how can I 'fix' what is essentially ... me?

Later Days,
Blaze

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